Asked forgiveness reacting in a negative way

I find my self asking for forgiveness. I have all as God to forgive me. I was blind sided by a situation and I did not handle it right. I was in tears. It is so hard to admit when you are wrong even though the other person might have done something really mean. One of my daughter tried to help me not to get angry but my flesh said otherwise. An so here I am apologizing. I was so hurt and angry I could see straight. Even though I have excepted Christ as my personal savior I have a lot to work on Paul said it well. I have a little bit of it from Romans 7 verses 15 through 25


15For I do not understand my own actions [I am baffled, bewildered]. I do not practice or accomplish what I wish, but I do the very thing that I loathe [[b]which my moral instinct condemns].

16Now if I do [habitually] what is contrary to my desire, [that means that] I acknowledge and agree that the Law is good (morally excellent) and that I take sides with it.

17However, it is no longer I who do the deed, but the sin [principle] which is at home in me and has possession of me.

18For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot perform it. [I have the intention and urge to do what is right, but no power to carry it out.]

19For I fail to practice the good deeds I desire to do, but the evil deeds that I do not desire to do are what I am [ever] doing.

20Now if I do what I do not desire to do, it is no longer I doing it [it is not myself that acts], but the sin [principle] which dwells within me [[c]fixed and operating in my soul].

21So I find it to be a law (rule of action of my being) that when I want to do what is right and good, evil is ever present with me and I am subject to its insistent demands.

22For I endorse and delight in the Law of God in my inmost self [with my new nature].(D)

23But I discern in my bodily members [[d]in the sensitive appetites and wills of the flesh] a different law (rule of action) at war against the law of my mind (my reason) and making me a prisoner to the law of sin that dwells in my bodily organs [[e]in the sensitive appetites and wills of the flesh].

24O unhappy and pitiable and wretched man that I am! Who will release and deliver me from [the shackles of] this body of death?

25O thank God! [He will!] through Jesus Christ (the Anointed One) our Lord! So then indeed I, of myself with the mind and heart, serve the Law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.

I was shocked at myself and confused as to why I reacted the way I did. I didn't see me. Everyday you have to ask God to search your heart because we do not know what is in there. Today I am meditating on Psalm 51

I am studying

I have been sitting here wondering why people lie out of the blue? You think everything is going well then someone you trust say something that is not true. I go to my bible when someone does that. This is one of my favorite Psalm 121

Psalm 121 (King James Version)

1I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.

2My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.

3He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.

4Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.

5The LORD is thy keeper: the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand.

6The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.

7The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.

8The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.

Peace of Mind

I am a mother of five and have a husband. I seem to be always in the middle of a tug of war. Everyone is over 12 now and they are doorstep ages. Sometimes there is so much going on you have no idea of what to do first, at least that is one of my downfalls. I have been in the bible a lot to give me some guidance. I was bless this week to hear some teaching on peace:Not just any peace but God's peace. I was fortunate to hear a radio cast Living in Peace in a Troubled World by Candace Brim. It has been very helpful in reminding me of the peace God has given through our faith in Christ. I not saying that I have mastered my calm but I have found tools in the bible to help me to work towards it. This url http://www.billyebrim.org/audio/by/artist/candace_brim is where you find Candace Brim revelation. I hope it helps you as much as it has helped me. We have the mental ability to control some aspects of our thinking. We just need the tools and to practice often. I hope the following scriptures help in your search.


John 14:27

Amplified Bible (AMP)
27Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled.]
New American Standard Bible (NASB)
27"(A)Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you (B)Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.
King James Version (KJV)
27Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

John 14:1 : John 14:27; 16:22, 24



Romans 14:19

King James Version (KJV)
19Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another.

Amplified Bible (AMP)
19So let us then definitely aim for and eagerly pursue what makes for harmony and for mutual upbuilding (edification and development) of one another.

New American Standard Bible (NASB)
19So then we pursue the things which make for peace and the (B)building up of one another.